I think I might be an idiot?

Well my ex girl freind and i have this weird thing going on shell call me like once then well hang out and yeah tehn she wont talk to me for a week durring thsi week she doesnt talk to me i suffer a little and then shell talk to me again im staritng to find this aggatating like out of no where this girl who was m,y best freind of 8 years calls her up telling her all these bullshit lies and then she doesnt talk to me i am hoping me spend christm,as together seeing as those were my plans my families not really getting me anything and i dotn ahve any money to get any thing i mean i want to be with her but shes with this guy plus we dont talk for long perooid of times shhould i keep puting up with these game she has going becasue i want to spend the rest of my klife with her are slowly make myself fall out of love